Unlocking My Infinite Potential

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Where there is Ego there is no amigo. ~ Yogi Bhajan

These words ran through my being echoing my own human-ness. 2016 got out of the starting gate with a big bang. There were things going on around and within me that I could no longer hide from. These things wanted me to confront them, deal with them, resolve them and they wanted it done NOW!

In 2015 Infinite Potential Yoga Studio came into existence. Though I owned it, the warm and welcoming space in Raton was where I became the instrument to guide Kundalini Yoga classes in the small community of Raton in New Mexico. It was and achievement I was proud of. A beautiful space in which I was excited to gracefully teach all who were willing to participate. My excitement continued to blossom as a caring, loving, respectful community was being created. It was the happiest I felt since my move to the USA as I always longed for more than just my daily practice with me, myself and I.

Within 6 months time, it became impossible to predict when Infinite Potential would be able to sustain itself financially. I was blessed to also have a secure full time job so each month saw me dipping into my own pockets to ensure the survival of this sacred space. A few months later as the weather grew colder, attendance dwindled, cost of utilities increased and my pockets were getting shallower. I feared the worst as I knew the time was coming that something had to be done soon.

My ego raged a war within. Mixed emotions of sadness, regret, admittance of failure, embarrassment – these and many more emotions were being processed within my human self. At the time, I couldn’t see that this turmoil was keeping me from going further and flying higher.

So I turned to what I knew. I dug deep each and every morning as though my sadhana I clung to Ego Eradicator like a drowning ant to a leaf. Through Breath of Fire I felt the stale, stagnant and stubborn air being released from my lungs. Transformation was taking place as my nervous system was being strengthened to be able to accept and embrace the change the Universe was about to deliver. With my out-stretched arms held at 60 degrees, I felt my heart opening and in so doing my own will was being released as I surrendered to God. Resolutely and firmly pointing my thumbs to the heavens expanded my aura and I could feel my blocks and my fears crumbling.

I had unlocked the divine power held within a beautiful Kundalini posture and for me it brought a happy ending to this story. One of my students was kind and generous enough to offer me the use of a cozy sacred space that Infinite Potential now calls its home. Without the cloud of month to month financial demands hanging over my head, I was now also able direct my energies towards going out into neighboring communities to share with them the beautiful teachings of Kundalini Yoga.

It was so obvious that the divine lesson learnt was that sometimes you need to be pulled back to be able to gather up the energy to be propelled forward and upward.

 

5 Comments

  1. So motivational; these words are truly uplifting. Thank you for sharing!

     
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  2. Absolutely! In our quest for happiness, freedom, and enlightenment, it is helpful to understand that the ordinary ego is simply a particularly ingrained habit. And, as with all habits, it can be unlearned. The breakthrough to enlightenment can happen at any time, but we need to be patient and persistent in our spiritual practice.

     
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  3. This is a lesson I am learning and re-learning almost on a daily basis, and one that I try to impart to my students through example. My definition of success and failure continues to evolve with each new challenge. Thank you so much for your words of inspiration and courage.

     
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  4. Thank you for posting this. I went through a similar situation. I had started teaching classes 3 yrs ago, people started coming, so I got a bigger space. As soon as I signed the contract my regular students couldn’t come (lost their jobs, dislocated a shoulder, etc). I saw it as a test of faith so I kept teaching, but like you, ended up subsidizing the classes. All of a sudden in the middle of yoga practice last night, there was a clear directive to let go of the space. I went through similar swirling emotions. Then I realized that with the bigger space (which seemed like what I was “supposed” to do) I was getting into the business of “filling the space” with events or managing other teachers when my passion and interest really was just teaching and sharing practice with others. So I moved back to my original smaller space and now I can spend my precious days and energy with a clear focus and true heart instead of spinning it out into activities that don’t inspire me. Kind of like refining 18K gold to 24K. Peace and blessings.

     
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  5. Always amazing. She is a great source of upliftment and motivation. Proud of you Hari Karan Kaur ji.

     
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