The holiday season is amongst us and even in my greatest effort to hold my own definitions and beliefs about what this season means to me, it’s nearly impossible to escape the collective buzz. Countless events and celebrations, gatherings and parties, craft making and buying, volunteering, donating, baking goodies, brunch dates and dinners. It’s everywhere.
I agree there is definitely space to celebrate, and then there’s also a strong lure to anchor into what is really important.
Sometimes discerning when to celebrate and when to ground gets confusing during this time of the year. With such a big mad rush to do and buy so much I forget that it’s enough to just sit and breathe deeper, to sit and become still, to sit and create peace within because I know there is so much angst happening without.
And I don’t know about you, but the tension can be overwhelming.
During a time of the season when we are meant to celebrate, be at peace and shine our love, there’s a lot of chaos and frustration out there. I feel it and I’m sure you do too.
Most of the time I don’t know I am holding on to so much tension. If you asked me to use a word to describe the feeling, I would have to say I feel angry. Perhaps even rage. Oh my! It pulses through my hips, into my gut, in my throat and fires up through the back of my neck. My body feels attacked and it’s no question it’s getting ready to fight.
But the truth of it is, I don’t even know what I’m angry about yet there’s no denying I am. I admit, this time of the year can bring up a past that hurts, can get me conflicted within family affairs and send me off an a rampage for getting as much as I possibly can get done before the so called “big day”. But this year, I resolve to not play the “blame game”. Instead I take full responsibility for my feelings and emotions and rest in something greater.
I choose to take in the lessons life serve me, whether it’s chaotic Christmas time or not. I choose to surrender to what arrives.
So what do I do to release the tension? I scream into pillows, practice breath of fire, yoga, dance, write. I take a time out. I meditate and chant. I do whatever I can to just let it out and then let myself relax. Because the last thing I want to do is let out my anger at someone unintended.
As I watch these sensations, feelings and emotions flow through me, during a time of the year where I’ve been so accustomed to eat them or drink them numb, I am enjoying the revelations they are gifting me.
I continue to see where in my life I am holding onto anger that needs to be released. I see where I am not fully showing up authentically because of the energy this repressed anger steals from me. I see where it’s keeping me playing small in my heart, in my life and with my family. I see where I have space to evolve and grow into my destine Self this upcoming New Year.
This week and next I am practicing the Wahe Guru Wahe Jio mantra of ecstasy. Wahe Guru is said to not only be the experience of the divine, but also impart the experience of the divine. Jio is said to impart an affectionate relationship to/with the divine.
Yogi Bhajan said that this mantra means “clear perception of what is important to preserve” and that it “links the essence of your purpose to the greater minds and souls in the cosmos.”
I can’t think of a better mantra to help get through the chaos of the festive season. A mantra that revels in keeping what is important, important. A mantra that connects us all through the divine. A mantra that seeds happiness and joy, to all beings, everywhere.
So wherever you are and whatever you are doing, take time to preserve what holds your truth this holiday season. Even if that means really breathing into and feeling your anger so you can once and for all grow up and transform it into peace & love. Take the time to do it. Because if there’s anything this world needs to give and receive more of, it is peace, love and truth.
Sat Nam, Big Love & a little Jingle Jingle